I have two days of school left and then it is over, I will (hopefully) never return to my school again. It has left me quite emotional as one can imagine and it made me hate myself for wasting so many days when I was checking the time every second. I didn’t appreciate how lovely school actually is. You have no worries whatsoever, you just go to the place filled with your favourite people, every day. Everything is done for you, all you have to do is pass your exams. Now don’t get me wrong, I am utterly excited to start university next year and I could not go another year to high school, but right now, my brain is drained with nostalgia and every time I look at the grey walls, the red bricks and the brown chairs of my school I just feel love and warmth. It is as if everything that used to be ugly and dull and I used to hate so much, now seems beautiful. I just want to stop the time and look around for a bit, so I can truly let everything sink in, to make sure I won’t forget everything here.

Time has passed so quickly this last year, it still feels as if it were October. It makes me worry that I did not enjoy high school enough. I have been saying I want to start university ever since I was fourteen, so maybe I never truly was with my head in high school. While typing this, I know that it isn’t true. Because if time passes by quickly, it means that you had fun. And if I had fun, that means I did enjoy it enough. It means that I have built lifelong friendships and memories. And those people are the things I will truly miss, not the grey walls or brown chairs, those objects may spark the nostalgia nestled within me, but in the end they will only trigger me, those memories within the walls are what really matters and I am not leaving those.

I have said that I wanted to leave high school since I was about fourteen and now that I am actually leaving high school, I guess it wasn’t so bad after all. But that is nothing new. I have heard everyone say everything I just described. I spoke to my friends and all of them feel this way. In your last year you will move in a different flow than the rest of the school, which makes you more connected to everyone in your year and in the end, you will love and miss everyone. Cause I know that the ones I find so annoying now, are also people I will remember and I will miss their annoyance. And isn’t that the best way to leave high school: with love and warmth for everyone and everything around you. We all want to leave on a positive note, so we can start a new life and although right this second I am not quite ready to do so, I know I will be in three months.