I’ve recently come to the realisation that I am an extrovert, not an introvert.

Normally I don’t really like using these labels,cause I believe humans are a lot more complex than ‘extrovert’ or ‘introvert’. I don’t think that a person can be truly introvert, or truly extrovert. We all want some human contact at some point and we all need some time alone to think, every once in a while. That was what I thought, before I heard someone explain introvert and extrovert. She said that being introvert had nothing to do with how much time you spent with friends, or alone, it is where you gain your energy from. Is that by spending time with a lot of people, do you feel energised afterwards, or do you feel exhausted? That is how you can tell if you’re an introvert of extrovert. You can still be an extrovert and spend a lot of time alone, I believe those things do not depend on eachother. Of course they are related, but not as much as one would think, as humans are a bit too complex to categorise them that way.

So I am an extrovert. I always thought I was an introvert, but since a few months I realised that I gain so much energy when I spend my time with people I like. I am still a little shy and I do enjoy spending time alone a lot. I just need to know that at some point I am going to talk to someone again. Preferably very soon. Because even when I am home alone, I skype with my friends who live in different countries.

So what does this mean? I think it means that I function very good when people are around me. So when I am going to study in a different city, I would like to live with some other students, so my house won’t be quit and there will always be something going on. Of course silence is lovely and very much needed when in need to study for an important exam, but you can go the liberary or something like that. Cause even though you are silent, there are still other people. I think if I would live by myself, I would be hopelessly lonely and quite frankly, just utterly bored. I need people to talk to, they will motivate me, otherwise I’ll just lay in bed, watching series. This of course could also just be my lack of discipline, but then again, working with other people (on your own task, cause I am very stubborn and want to do everything my way) is much more productive for me.

It could always change, I can suddenly get exhausted by people, but for now I am not. And that all my friends live so far away from me can be very annoying sometimes.

I would like to add, that I am not great with people. I am awkward, silent in a group full of people I don’t know. I am shy and not always that great to make conversation. I am not the loudest one in my friends group, but I like to listen a lot. So I am really an extrovert then?

Maybe the concepts ‘introvert’ and ‘extrovert’ don’t really apply to a human. Maybe we are in some moments an extrovert and some an introvert. That is how I feel sometimes. At the moment I am such an extrovert, cover me with all my friends until I can’t breathe anymore. Cause maybe if  I can’t breathe anymore, i’ll turn introvert again.